I have insomnia and the only thing proven to help me is illegal.?

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I have struggled with insomnia my entire life. I have been to sleep studies after sleep studies. I've been on all the meds, and combination of meds, patches, liquids, powders, pills- nothing has worked. I'm as wide awake as an owl after I ingest them. A friend of mine gave me some marijuana and after one hit, I was out like a light. I've been using this (just one hit at a time) to fall asleep and it's be wonderful for my life. And now, I can't find it. The friend moved away and I haven't slept in a few days.

What would you do?
I don't want to go to jail. But I want to sleep.
I live in Maine.
J, thanks for your answer. I have tried them all. I'm 33 and have been attempting to treat this for over 20 years. Been plenty of therapists as well, to make sure it wasn't emotional.


Extra info. When I used the marijuana, I didn't have to use it every night. At first I did, but after that I only had to use it every so often.

BTW... it's 3:08 in Maine and I have a meeting at 6am.
Thanks for your answers. I looked up the marijuana laws in Maine and I don't fit into the category. It is legal to possess small amounts of the herb if you have proof of a doctor's order... but you have to have a muscle spasm disorder or going through chemo.